I’ve been reflecting over Friday’s unexpected email/event over this weekend. It’s hard to know how to proceed or what to do. Being terminated unexpectedly/being “fired” by my therapist has been something shocking to think of or consider. Part of me wants to somehow explain what’d been going through my mind, which led to the 2 missed sessions. Give things another shot. Get a second chance. But there’s a part of me that’s lost hope, in a way. I have no faith that things are going to change. And I have no faith in the fact I will be able to work through this. But this little part of me wants it to work– as pessimistic as I feel about this entire situation.
When therapy & this perception of a relationship with a therapist comes to this point (of basically getting to a point where a client has lost hope), is there no turning back? Is there no hope for repair in this particular relationship?
Even if I don’t continue sessions with current therapist, I still feel an injustice at not having a chance to explain myself. Is it only right and fair that I get a “last session” of sorts as a client? Being sent this email [stating that I’ve been terminated] is almost like breaking up with a significant other via text/Facebook or email. It feels so… shallow. Insincere. But I don’t know what to say to my therapist to ask for a last session. I’ve ignored the last 2 emails she sent me.
And… who knows about next steps. Do I take an extended “break” from therapy? Do I try to hope that current therapist & I can work things out? Do I hope and pray that there is someone out there who will help me as much as Yoda did (but will not be time-limited)? Someone rewind me to last summer, please.